Loverboy and I are making this huge decision to move in together. He seems pretty calm about it but I'm kind of freaked out.

We went to browse Ikea today. He says he wants to get a sofabed to save space in his room especially when he does his assignments. I suggested maybe we get a bunkbed and make the space below as a study/work area for him. Either way there are pros and cons lah kan. He kept pressuring me with all these questions and I felt even worse about things. I'm not really sure what I'm feeling at the moment.

I really hope everything's gonna turn out alright. I hate feeling this way.

Last night I was sitting at home alone, minding my own business. Thinking about a lot of things. Haven't been having a clear head lately but I'd rather not mention why. All the sudden Paan shows up and surprises me. I thought I wouldn't be seeing him till Monday. Even without saying so, I could tell he was moody but it wasn't towards me. I was moody but I didn't want to bother him seeing as he seemed a little off himself.

So I laid in bed quietly while he did his own thing. I started tearing and he noticed. He asked me what was wrong and I kept quiet. After a while he switched off the lights and started kissing me softly and holding me. He kept asking me what was wrong and I didn't wanna say anything. He held me closer and I cried even worse. At one point he kissed my lips and there was string of snot connecting our noses, he went all "Eeeeeeww!", and I started giggling. He knew I wasn't gonna mention why so he just let it go, and hugged me even tighter. I fell asleep on his chest, crying my eyes out, and smiling at the same time.

I can't exactly describe how I felt at that moment, laying down on him while he hugged me as if he was never gonna let go. But try picture it yourself and I guess you'll get why I even bothered to type this out.

Today pulak, I'm all smiles. Heee.

few of many reasons I love...

# Just bought me another Thursday t-shirt and it's awesome. It's brown and has reddish-pinkish doves all over. So awesome. :D
# Has little or no interests in things like blogs, twitter, facebook, etc. although he has them all, he hardly even logs in or updates, and only goes online for music. Although I wish he'd come chat with me once in a while when he's at his house or something.
# Doesn't like sports. At all.
# Is a sexy man who's good at art, not to mention how hardworking he is when it comes to it. He even ditches me to finish up his assignments. (He's studying Fine Art)
# Bought that purple t-shirt cause I like purple and I have the exact same colour. We tacky like that.

LOVE! ♥

As usual he would hate taking photos but I'd take them anyway. They were taken a few days back. It was raining that morning and I forgot my sweater, so I took his, (Plus, you know, which girlfriend doesn't love their boyfriend's scent? Hell we don't give two shits about our nice smelling clothes, we prefer our own lovers' smelly masamness instead!) and I could tell he was freezing but he let me have it anyway. I'm spoiled like that. ;)

I loved these past few days we spent together. We stayed at his parents' place for a few days. He would do his assignments while I watched AFC, we cooked proper meals instead of eating out, talked and talked and joked around a lot. It was just lovely.

Soundwave just released their 2nd (most probably but hopefully not!) announcement and I'm stoked!!

So on 20th February 2010, I will be with my one and only loverboy, watching these great bands:

PLACEBO
THE GET UP KIDS
SUNNY DAY REAL ESTATE
TAKING BACK SUNDAY
ALEXISONFIRE
AFI
A DAY TO REMEMBER
EMAROSA
DANCE GAVIN DANCE
THE ALMOST
MAXIMUM THE HORMONE
ENTER SHIKARI
ESCAPE THE FATE
MOTION CITY SOUNDTRACK

COMEBACK KID
THE DEVIL WEARS PRADA

And these are only the ones I am and/or Paan is actually looking forward to. Loads more bands though. I'm so excited! This is gonna be the first time going to a proper music festival, and I really can't fucking wait! It's gonna be so awesome! :)

But for now, I can't believe that it's only a few weeks away from:

La Quiete bitch!!! :D

Haven't been posting so I thought I'd share a few latest photos. Courtesy of Li. :)

the boy I can never stop talking about, or to.

It's been a week since our 1st year. Haven't got the time to properly go out and spend time with each other cause it was the same day as Raya. I haven't even seen him since Wednesday. I really miss him. We hardly spend this much time apart and I know that sounds pathetic but that's just the way we are; the loveydoveymushygushy kind of couple. And we don't get sick of it, really.

"Being in a relationship" is tough, or so they say, and all my friends know very well that I'm not good at keeping up with that. But when I'm with Paan it's just so easy. And honestly, he's my best friend. I don't have a girl friend I talk to all the time and tell stupid stories or when I get juicy gossip or have actual conversations with. It's always with him. I don't feel like I have to talk to him, I talk to him cause it comes naturally. And he listens to me, even when I'm being stupid. I've never been with or even met a guy who can tolerate me like that. Someone who actually layans me like that. Even when I'm being the biggest of bitches, he bothers to pujuk me and try be silly and ends up putting a big smile on my face.

That's the best part of having him as my boyfriend. He's perfect for me. And I love him so much for that. :)

Happy 1 year and a week baby! Hehe.

Raya was all good times and fun which sadly came to an end after only two days. After that, back to reality; no college, the job hasn't started, no money to go out and do anything, no boyfriend around due to him visiting his family here and there. So as usual I'm stuck at home eating instant noodles, processed meats, and/or canned goods while catching up on Weeds, How I Met Your Mother, and Gossip Girl.

I can't stand any other person who keeps complaining about their college or job when the minute they're having a break they say they miss it and are bored. Get your head out of your asses, people, slacking isn't the best feeling in the world. I'd rather much have a million assignments to finish up rather than having a headache from too much sleep.

Indeed, life is boring. Sigh.

guess what came in the mail today.

I guess it's official now; I am out of school. I could cry wei. :(

I seem to be posting photos more than writing these days. I guess I haven't had much to say lately. It's been a terrible year, 2009, or so they say. And it's only mid-September. Despite what's been going on with the whole world, our little country, and even my own personal life, I can't help but feel like the luckiest girl in the world.

Sure, I'm no longer studying, which really upsets me when brought up in conversations. I'd really prefer not to be reminded that I'm the only one amongst a lot of people around me that's not going anywhere with their education.
But I've just recently been offered a great opportunity, which I'm crazily excited about but cannot say much on the subject just yet. Will let you all know when it's 100% confirmed. :)

I also have lost my own father this year. Not to death, more like, he's dead inside. He hasn't been the same awesome dad I loved that made me the envy of all my friends. He's no longer the same person he used to be at all. And I got too upset with him because of this, that I actually gathered the guts to say that I did not want to have anything to do with him anymore. I'm sure this wont last forever, but for now I'd really rather keep my distance.

And although I'm barely surviving with all expenses and everything cause living on your own really sucks out the moolah, and since my father has seized to give me pocket money, I've been coping quite well. Of course, Paan helps me out a lot which I am so thankful for although he really shouldn't spoil me like this.

So yeah, I'm being positive about things, I've kept a good relationship with all my friends, and not to mention I have the best boyfriend anyone could ever have.

Who says 2009 is such a bad year? I don't think so.

Well yeah, the only thing that sucks right now is that I've got zits again and I miss all my cats at home. ♥