So, I'm pretty upset lah kan. I mean, who the fuck wants to go educationless for the rest of their lives? I've never wanted to upset my parents in any way, especially my Mummy. I wanted to make her proud for so long now. Tapi now I terfikir, diorang pulak tak malu ke? Kalau anak tak study? Kalau anak tak dapat even a stupid diploma? Kalau malu, just fucking cough up the cash lah? Bukannya susah, Segi tak mahal. Tapi soal trust tu, memang bodoh. I'm obviously paying for my college, I'm not asking for money just so I can spend it for my selfish needs. Cmon la I'm not that kind of person.
Tapi takpe, I'm not gonna let this get to me this time. I'm just gonna walk in to college tomorrow, register but delay payment, probably apply for a student loan(been meaning to ask, can I do this without their consent?). Biarlah diorang spend on their own things like a MacBook Pro or a Canon D40&new lenses.... cause having a kid is so expensive, sapa tanak spend their own money on their own things kan?
p/s Aku tak sedap hati dengar Shuz tak dapat loan dia lagi and can't return to college yet? I miss her forever and a day, tapi I don't like the fact that she can sort of relate to this problem. But money's on the way love, and (hopefully) our new place? <3


